ENTERTAINMENT: “I’m Alive” by Brian Littrell
I am such a huge Backstreet Boys fan. Well, at least I used to be. I still like some of their music, but they should now be referred to as the Backstreet Men. Except for Nick. I still see him as a boy.
But my favorite has always been Brian. I think because he was a little more shy, a little more reserved, not so willing to expose himself or to do things he didn’t want to do just for the publicity they might receive because of it. And although I didn’t know it for a long time, he is also a Christian. That is very ironic because I had four other friends who each had their Backstreet Boy. None of the other Backstreet Boys are Christians (as far as I know), and none of those friends of mine are Christians (as far as I know). But they do resemble their Backstreet Boy in some way or another. I didn’t know it, but I was destined to be a Christian like Brian.
I love Brian’s songs. I have always loved his voice, regardless of what he was singing about, but his solo gospel songs are so incredibly deep and moving. One that I have recently become very moved by is called “I’m Alive.” Here are the lyrics:
I lived a lot of life
I caught a dream or two
It’s been a sweet ride
But I’ve faced my share of nights
Searched like we all do
Looking inside
Now I’m standing here
‘Cause You’ve made it clear
This heart inside me beats because
You loved enough to take my cross
I’m alive
You gave Your life to shatter death
So even after my last breath
I’m alive
I’m finally wide awake
I’m finished being know
It’s a new day
I feel it on my face
In hope’s a midnight sun
That won’t fade
I’m bowing down
And I’m crying out
This heart inside me beats because
You loved enough to take my cross
I’m alive
You gave Your life to shatter death
So even after my last breath
I’m alive
Forever, forevermore
Forever, Lord
I think the most moving part for me is when he sings “So even after my last breath, I’m alive” because it’s so true. I’m still afraid of death. I’m afraid of dying. But it makes it a lot less scary to know that I will still be alive after death on this earth. It will just be an infinitely better alive than I could ever hope to have here on earth. That hit me real hard when listening to this song just now.
Seriously, if you get a chance, listen to this song. Buy his CD or search it on YouTube. Or if you have Zune or iTunes or some other program, maybe just listen to a snippet. And if you like it well enough, then buy it. I love it.
PS – The harmony is awesome, and I am all about harmony.
PPS – I also love that if you go to his website, the photos are not just of him, like most self-centered musicians and actors do. They are of him and his family. His life. That’s just awesome to me. It looks like you would see those pictures in an album in their house, you know?
FRIENDS: Swept Away!
Okay, so I’m so excited! One of my best friends of fifteen years, Ashlie, is getting married in January! Although I’ve known this for a while, the flame of excitement has been rekindled because she asked me yesterday if I could go and try on some bridesmaid dresses with her. That wouldn’t be so exciting if I wasn’t a bridesmaid, but luckily, I am. And although I was excited to look at dresses, I was more excited to see Ashlie and Mallory, for sure. I had seen Ashlie more recently, but I hadn’t really seen Mallory since high school, so I was super excited to see her. And I was looking forward to meet Ashlie’s roommate at CSU, Liz.
So today, I woke up and got ready to drive up to Fort Collins. I was doing good, running right on schedule. But something happened, I’m not even really sure what, and I end up leaving about ten minutes late. I finally get on the road, stop at the gas station for a morning snack, and get onto the highway. The second I hit the highway, I realize that I left my phone at home. Crap. So, I have to turn around and go get it. I almost didn’t because I didn’t think I would need it. You will find out later that I definitely needed it.
So I get my phone and head out. I’m now trying to drive a 53 minute drive in 10 minutes. Obviously, I’m not going to do it. But I’m hoping to get there without losing too much more time. Well, that didn’t really work out so well. There were two different construction zones, and two accidents along the way. All four times, traffic slowed to no more than 20 mph for at least two miles each time. You know how you’re on the highway and traffic comes to a hault for no apparent reason, and then, just as you see the accident on the side of the road, traffic starts to pick up again? That pisses me off to no end. ”Look, Martha! Let’s stop in the middle of the highway to stare at those unfortunate people and slow everybody down behind us! I see a dent!”
So anyway, I get to Fort Collins. I hit my exit. I’m cruising right along. I’m supposed to see the street to turn onto about five miles after my exit. Okay, no problem. Well, five miles comes and no sign of it. Ten miles, no sign. I’m into the mountains and I’m thinking to myself, “I don’t think she lives this far west.” Sure enough. I text her and she tells me to turn around. I finally find her house, and we head out to the bridal shop.
Swept Away Bridal Botique I think is the name of it. It’s this cute little bridal shop in Loveland just a few exits south of Fort Collins. We go inside and look at their slideshow of current dresses in stock and soon to be in stock. So, we write down the styles that we want, and the lady gets most of them for us to try on. These are the four that we liked the best that were available in grape:
- Mallory in the short black number.
- Me in the pretty lace wrap.
- Me in my favorite one of the four.
- Liz in a beautiful halter.
FINANCES: A House?
I really wanted to put an exclamation mark instead of a question mark in the title of this post, but I can’t. I just don’t know yet. I talked to the bank the other day, and they right away got me talking to a broker and a mortgage specialist and all these people. And in situations like that, normally I would feel really pressured and put off by the way they just jumped right to it. But in this case, the faster the better.
I want a house.
I really, really, want a house.
I love living with Ky’s parents. I really and truly do. But as any couple might want, we want a place of our own. A place that is just ours and nobody else’s. Ours. As it stands right now, we couldn’t really afford much. But I’m going to be working full time now (with the exception of hopefully a trip out to New Mexico in August and school in September). If we can even get a loan, all we could probably afford is going to be no more than $125,000 at the very most. That’s almost pushing it. But all the good houses that we want, like in Arvada, are at least that much. We might have to settle for something somewhere else for now.
Either way, I’m still excited at the prospect of having a house. I mean, I want to work some and save some money before having a baby, but if we could at least have a house, it would make me feel so much better about having one. I don’t want to be living in an apartment with a baby, and although Mark and Margie’s place is the second best place to have a baby, our own house would, of course, be the very best. So if anybody has any tips or suggestions, I would greatly appreciate them! No opinions, like we shouldn’t get one now or anything like that, ecause we are already looking and haven’t made our final decision yet. But if you have any suggestions that would make it easier to get one or some financial tips on how to maximize our search or the like, definitely let us know!
TRAVEL: 8 Hours On The Road!
We’re back!
Here’s a short…who am I kidding…long account of what went on in Oklahoma. Not super exciting, but a nice, relaxing trip for the most part anyway.
Day 1
I guess the first day starts when we actually got the go ahead from Ky’s work. First, it was going to be just Mark going. Then I offered to go. Then it was going to be Mark and Bethany. But finally, after much debate and thought, Ky talked to some people at his work and we both decided to go. Although we had never driven that far before, Ky was determined to do so for three main reasons: one, Ky needed to be back to work before Mark which meant that we needed to leave sooner than Mark wanted to. Two, we were going to bring some of Ada’s stuff back. And three, Ky, being the macho man that he is, wanted to say that he could drive the nine straight hours to Oklahoma.
So at about 9:30pm on Saturday night, I get a call from someone at Ky’s work. Since Ky wasn’t at home, I was assuming it was him. Sure enough. He was calling to say that he got work off for the next few days and we were going to Oklahoma with his dad, if that was okay with me. I am always excited to go on trips, so I was all for it. I just had to make sure that my brother could find an alternate babysitter for my nieces for the two days that I would miss. He could.
Day 2
Midnight rolls around and I’m freaking out, trying to hurry back home. I had to go to my brother’s to get some of the money he owed me for babysitting and then get the cash from my dad in order to use it on the trip. Since we had to leave home by 1am and I had only packed about half of my stuff, I was in a big hurry. Luckily, I got back in enough time to leave as scheduled.So we start. Ky is driving and I am usually sleeping at this point. Between my usual bedtime having already passed and being in a car usually puts me to sleep, I was out like a light pretty quickly. I also wanted to get some rest so that, in the event that Ky got too tired, I could take over. Fortunately for me, he made it all the way there without a problem.
Now, I am getting excited by the time we hit Enid. Although I’m still kind of out of it because I’m so tired and it’s almost noon Oklahoma time, I was looking forward to seeing not only Ada but the boyfriend I kept hearing rumors about. And then we finally reach the parking lot of the rest home.Ky and Mark are both pretty ready to get out and walk around, but since I had slept about eight and a half hours of the nine it took to get there, I was still rather sleepy. Ky and Mark get out and go straight in while I fumble around, looking for my shoes, my eyes still halfway shut. The afternoon sun was not my friend at that point.
But I finally find them and stumble my way to her room. When I get there, I immediately light up at the smile Ada has on her face after having seen us. After hugging her, she asks me if i had heard about her boyfriend, Louis. I tell her that I had heard some rumors about him and laugh. Everybody laughs, and I get up to shake Louis’ hand. I notice that his index finger from the last knuckle is missing on his right hand. Knowing that I will probably not find out what happened to it, I put it out of my mind. I wasn’t going to ask about it. I didn’t want to be rude. Maybe I’ll find out later…. I did find out later that he would tell his grandkids that he lost it picking his nose too much.
So we sit around and jaw for about fifteen minutes before heading down to dinner (dinner is at noon and supper is in the evening). And as a pleasant surprise, although I wasn’t super hungry, I was glad to know that we were having dinner there at the home with Ada instead of scouting out a restaurant to go to. If we hadn’t just spent nine hours in the cars, it would have been just fine. And the dinner we had was great. It was roast beef, mashed potatoes and gravy, and mixed veggies. I was only hungry enough to eat the potatoes, but boy were they good! Oklahoma eatin’ is always scrumtious.
After dinner, Ky and I decided to look for a hotel to stay at. We wanted a cheap place to crash that wasn’t going to be smokey nor bug-infested. So after calling around for a few minutes, we decided to head out to just see what would happen. We first stopped at a place called the Trail Motel. Although the staff spoke perfect English, was very kind and accomodating, and the room she showed us was spotless and smelled like fresh flowers in the spring, we decided that the $48 +tax was just not enough to spend on this luxurious, five-star motel. Please note: every word in the previous sentence was overflowing with sarcasm, in case you couldn’t tell.
After high-tailing it out of there as quickly as we could without being too rude, we headed farther south on Van Buren. Not too far down, we saw a motel that would be about as good as the Trail Motel. Despite the lingering taste in our mouth from the Trail, we decided to check it out anyway. When I walked into the office, I was a little nervous at the Chinese woman behind the desk. Luckily, she just looked Chinese and actually did speak perfect English. I was pretty satisfied with the fact that the rooms were only $50 a night plus tax, and I was incredibly happy to find out that they had wireless internet. After seeing that the bathroom might actually get us more clean as opposed to giving us diseases like the other motel, we decided to just take the room. We were tired and we didn’t think we would find a better deal for a better room.
Okay, I have to say here that since we had entered the state of Oklahoma, Ky had been going on about wanting Pizza Hut. Since we didn’t have Pizza Hut for dinner, we decided to have it for supper. We decided that once we got settled into our motel room, we would rest for a bit and then head back over to meet Mark and Ada for supper.
Well, of course, Ky promptly falls asleep. And despite my best efforts to stay awake, I open my eyes two hours later only to discover that Mark and Ada had tried to get ahold of us and had already left to eat. Oh well. We go back to sleep.
Day 3
Almost seventeen hours later, I wake up. It’s about 7am on Monday now. I really hate it, but for some stupid reason, if I fall asleep on pillows that aren’t the right softness or put the right amount of pressure on my head, I will inevitably wake up with a headache. And especially sleeping for as long as we did (as off and on as it was), I woke up with a massive headache. And it seems that if I’m really stressed out or I sleep longer than about ten hours, I’m pretty sure I clench my teeth in my sleep. So I literally had an entire headache. I felt so horrible when I woke up on Monday. Luckily, I packed some Tylenol for just such an occassion. And I was really happy because we were going to Cherokee that day, which was about an hour away. So I had an hour for the Tylenol to kick in.
As soon as we got to Cherokee, we headed over to the farm, where Mark’s brother, Gary, lives with his family. When we got there, we went out to the fields to find Gary. He got some new farm equipment after his old ones clunked out on him, so he and his son, Jacob, were out there testing out the new ones. They got a new chisel and a cutter. And although I have never lived on a farm, I know that a chisel is kind of like a giant tiller. It digs up the soil and turns it over so that the ground will be soft and moist. The cutter, on the other hand, is kind of like a lawn mower. It cuts the grass (or hay) and sucks it up into it then spits it out the back in a neat row to be twined together.
So after Ky took a spin on the cutter with Gary, everybody but Jacob went back to the house for dinner. Since the weather was right, they had to take advantage of it. Jacob just got the short straw, I guess. Although I don’t think he really minds it. Even likes it. I’m not really sure. Too bad, though. He missed out on a great dinner. We had country fried steak (which I had never had before), mashed potatoes and gravy, biscuits, and corn. I have a tiny stomach, so I can’t eat that much. But I did manage to finish off an entire steak, a whole helping of mashed potatoes, most of the biscuit, and at least three helpings of corn. Ky, on the other hand, is somewhat of a bottomless pit. He had almost twice as much food on his plate than me and still finished off a second plate of just as much food. Don’t know where he puts it all. Props to Tamara, though, for cooking such good food!
After that, we just sat around jawin’ and watching Family Feud. Oh, and before dinner, Allison, Ky’s cousin, showed us pictures of the house after the tornado hit them about a month ago. There was some damage, but luckily the house survived. The only damage to the house I think was that the barbeque went through the living room window. I want to say that there was something else, but I can’t think of what right now.
Anyway, then we left the farm and went to Burlington, to the Apostolic Christian Cemetery to see Ada’s husband Hank’s grave. I got some pictures of some of his extended family’s headstones for genealogy purposes, which I was glad of. And then we went to see Frank and Annabelle, Ada’s brother and his wife. I got some information about Annabelle’s family for genealogy as well. I’m excited to talk to relatives about stuff like that. I’ve got about 1200 people in my family tree so far.
After being at Frank and Annabelle’s for an hour or so, we decided that it was time for supper. And after getting talked into a bowl of ice cream and a piece of cake, we finally headed back to town for some Pizza Hut (big surprise, right?).
Oh, and when we got to Pizza Hut, we saw a man by the name of Bob Wilson. We met him last time we went to Oklahoma, and he played a few funny tricks on me. He’s a really nice guy, and I’m super gullible, so it worked out really well for both of us. But apparently he had forgotten who I was and played the same tricks on me in Pizza Hut. He gave me a piece of paper with “NEW DOOR” on it and told me to spell one word with it. Actually, I should say he told me to spell “ONE WORD” with it. Funny, right? And although he didn’t do it this time, last time he had me write my initials on my fingertip and told me it was a monogramed hanky. Ha ha ha. I think he was flirting with me, really lol. Not like that, but you know.
Anyway, as fun as the day was, we knew that we had to head back and get some rest. So we did. Ky and I had to be out of the motel by 11am the next day, so we had to get to bed.
Day 4
Well, we got up about thirty minutes before we had to check out. I guess getting back to the motel in time to sleep in and still get up early didn’t work out. If I remember correctly, we were awake until about 2am. But we didn’t want to have to pay for another night that we wouldn’t use, so I made sure to take the key over to the office. And when I got there, I was afraid that they might pull something on us because nobody was in the office and even though I waited for about five minutes, nobody came. I was really starting to wonder if I would leave the office and come back only to be charged for another night because I wasn’t there before 11am, even though I was, wink wink. But when I went back, an oriental man who had been cleaning a room got the key from me (he didn’t speak any English, I found out).
Fortunately, we didn’t have to pay for another night, and we got all of our stuff packed up and in the truck without another hitch. We drove to Ada’s place and took some last pictures and video before heading out to dinner. Mark and Ada stayed at the home while Ky and I went to Pizza Hut…again. I’m not complaining, mind you. It’s really just to make a better story.
After we were all done with dinner, we said goodbye to Enid and headed back to Cherokee. Ada had some stuff in storage in Cherokee, where her old house was. It had been sold since she wasn’t living there anymore, and a lot of her stuff got sold with it. But some of it was salvaged and taken to the storage unit. Part of the reason we took the truck out was so that we could haul something back. Luckily, we managed to fit the top part of an old hutch in the back almost perfectly. It stuck up a little bit because we have a toolbox attached back there. But it worked out really nicely.
By the time we got it all strapped in and had said our teary-eyed goodbyes to Ada, it was about 4pm. We needed to head out. So we did. And we had a nice, long, wonderful trip back home. It was our first road trip together with just the two of us driving the car, so it was kind of exciting. Especially when we ran over the leg of a deer or something somewhere in Kansas. Ky said he had never seen so much blood on the road before. Luckily, I didn’t see it.
But we managed to get home safely and quickly, which I was very thankful for. As you might expect, we got all our stuff out of the truck and headed straight for bed.
And that, as they say, is that.
TRAVEL: Oklahoma! Where the wind…
I am going out of town to visit Ky’s grandma, so if you send me an email or comment on my blog, you may not get a response from me until we get back. We should be back no later than Wednesday, but we will probably come back on Tuesday. Ky has to work Wednesday night. That is going to be really hard on him because the guy that works the same shift but opposite days as him is going to take his vacation next week. That means that since Ky’s working four days and hs four days off (and the other guy does as well but opposite), and the other guy is taking all four days off, Ky has to work 13 out of 15 days. He’ll work pretty much straight through from the 16th to the 30th with only two days off.
Anyway, long story short (I say that a lot), we will have our phones with us but I may not get to respond to any emails or anything until next Wednesday. I’ll miss you all!
ACTIVITIES: Puzzle Finished!
I know it sounds really stupid and boring, but this is the first puzzle I’ve ever really done on my own! And I actually finished it by myself! Well, Ky put in a few pieces. But for the most part, I did it.
I would give this puzzle a seven on a scale of hardness, and only because of that stupid canvas on the wagon. That took forever! I think I started this puzzle about a month ago, and I just finished it today. Hooray!
I told you my life was boring….
LANGUAGES: Здравствуйте!
Здравствуйте! Hello! Okay, it took me about five minutes to type that out (mostly because I am still learning where each of the letters are). This may or may not pan out, but I’m trying to learn Russian. I’ve been fascinated with the language for several years now but have never actually buckled down and studied it. I can pronounce most of the letters, but I can’t really read anything. That is my goal here today.
So, if you speak Russian and would like to teach some to me, give me a holler!
PLUG: Sugar Ink Design
I am really, really excited about this. For the longest time, my sister has been interested in graphic design. She went to school for it, and now she’s putting it to good use. My sister, Kris Morgan, and her partner in crime, Teri Alverson, have successfully started their own design business. Sugar Ink Design is born! Saturday, June 28th was the grand opening party of Sugar Ink Design, one of the best, edgiest design companies around.
Kris and Teri are a pair of graphic designers who share a love for typography, photography, and all things sweet. Each earned their BFA in communication design at Metropolitan State College of Denver. Their paths crossed during their first semester when they found themselves attending all the same classes. They always patterned up, sharing ideas, notes, homework, fears, and tears. Career goals after college didn’t exactly pan out the way they had hoped, and after working for a few companies, they decided that this just wasn’t taking them to the creative level they were hoping for. So the idea of starting a freelance business began.
During Teri’s pregnancy, she developed gestational diabetes, which meant NO SUGAR! As a pregnant woman, this was absolutely devastating news because that’s all she wanted to eat. When faced with the challenge of finding a company name, all she could think about was sugar, sugar, sugar! The ensatiable cravings eventually led to the name of the company. It was perfect for the girls’ personalities and design style. Each of them are very unique in their loves and hates but manage to collaborate ideas quite nicely.
If you’ve got a big event coming up, a wedding, baby shower, graduation, or anything that requires invitations, visit their website. Need to advertise with a poster? Go to Sugar Ink. Starting your own company and need a logo to go with it? Kris and Teri are your girls. Go to www.sugarinkdesign.com to learn more and to contact them.
ENTERTAINMENT: The Sims
To begin with, I don’t usually just sit down and play computer games for hours and hours at a time. I used to, but I rarely do anymore. But for the past few days, I’ve been really into the Sims 2 again. I’m not sure why. I go on these Sims binges where I just can’t seem to get enough. Then I get kind of tired of it and don’t play it for months. I’m sure that won’t change.
What I usually do with my characters is play me and Ky. I very rarely play anybody else. I usually play as Ky for a while, level him up a little bit, then create me and play as me. Then I put them together, two struggling people with no money, and have them get married. Then they have babies right away. This is usually what causes my downfall.
But this time, I maximized both me and Ky before I got them married so that we’d each have a bundle of money to bring together when we got married. And it worked! We each had about 200,000 Simoleans when we got married, which gave us a net total of 400,000. Yay for math. And, I know it’s really sad, but we got pregnant almost right away and had twin girls! I’m so happy! LOL
Anyway, to make a long story short (too late), I like the Sims. And what’s even better is that they’re coming out with the Sims 3 in 2009. I can’t wait! It sounds like you can customize your Sim a lot more, and you can actually walk around in their neighborhood and visit neighbors’ houses and stuff. It sounds neat. It’s on my birthday list next year, if anybody is interested!



